Expectations

It is Saturday night, the weekend, which just started btw, will come to an end tomorrow night :-( (whoever decided that weekends should only be two days- should be shot!!).

Had a great time with some friends this evening- pondered life, friends, futures and babies (friend is preggies). Everyone around me seems to either be married, planning to get married or pregnant! I mean surely there is more to life than "being an adult".

Some days I want to be a mom and be married (and all that jazz), but 99% of the other days I want an apartment in Paris, working at a company overlooking the Arc de Triomphe on the Champs Elysee. *sigh as my heart breaks for Paris*

I want a family and want to live the normal suburban life, but yearn for something more. Something worth dreaming of, something worth living for. Something which allows me to say "I lived my life 150%". I saw the world, lived my dream...

Then reality settles in: I have a man who I love, who does not want to travel like I do, I have a great home which we just bought, three pets...you know all the stuff that makes life worth living in my present reality.... then I question all this and think: what if in 20 years all "this" is not enough?

Seriously am considering a temporary stint in Paris though- just need to get Edelman and Baird's to agree on employment terms :-) maybe one day....

For now though- I find comfort in my blog and the freedom it will give me to dream and explore.

So for tonight- this is all I have to share.

Nighty night!